DOWN IN A PIT

Thursday April 9, 2015

Rate of Mood: DOWN IN A PIT

Discovered the.....postponed truth.......or maybe i confirmed at last......

my primary's school classmate, Lam Yik Ning, always posted photos with his gf on fb

and they would show up in my news feed on fb......and a year ago, i rolled over his gf's name, i found out we had Samuel Li and Joanne as common friend....
at that time, i sorta guessed that maybe she's his ex-girlfriend.....and today i confirmed that it is....
when i saw their INTIMATE photo together, i really cried out......couldnt explain and my heart really felt a bit painful....
and for that day i really dun wanna talk to Sam........i knew i shouldnt be like that......i should forget...

but that photo just engraved on my mind.....i cried sooo much.....sigh........he was so happy back then....

i couldnt help but think that he would be better off with her than with me.......

and this also lets me see how he is also like the rest of the men........only get pretty girls........

and i was sooo upset that his ex-girlfriend is SOO MUCH PRETTIER than me....

i have NOTHING.....NOTHING...........NOTHING @ ALL that is better than her......
i know im very selfish......unlike Sam....im calculative..............always bad, and plus IM UGLY.....

nothing........good is in me indeed.......LORD am i truly............? ....sigh..............