NEW YEAR

One of the goal is to fast with my mouth as i was doing some devotional recently....(Ps 141:3)
tbh i felt like im a failure in EVERY SINGLE ASPECT in my life
@ WORK, i know im a bad witness, and like an outsider......no one likes to befriend with me
Once Sam Chi told me that the others think im NOT interested or at least seem NOT to
BUT the truth is.....im NEVER comfortable there....and tbh My also sometimes said sth repulsive too
why am I THE ONE ALWAYS being blamed or targeted BUT NOT HER?.....=T

SO @ church, ever since we left CLBC, i lost all those friendship......Jennifer would never find me much
i can see that the bonding between the sisters are stronger when i left.......and they always have trips together.....
with the new church UAC, im still NOT used to it...........theres no one i can go to....sigh

@ life.....everyone has a colourful life...full of friends.........full of joy......i wish i could be like them...
im like always with NO FRIENDS............i JUST WANNA BE ACCEPTED

but i know God is giving me a baby girl........i hope she won't be ANYTHING like me......
i only pray that she would be devoted to God, be more like Sam.... =]

WEDDING DAY 8/1/15

MY MOST PRECIOUS MOMENT, YOU MADE ME THE LUCKIEST GIRL XDD

COURAGE

today i had a chance to talk deeply with SAM SAM =3 its such a joyful thing

i hope we could walk on the future with courage, to strive to love God more together =]

But Lord please help us, that we may be freed from ourselves and be more like You........

FIRST (SURPRISED) wedding shower

today its a special day with a special night =P i thought its a boys vs girls night
BUT when Sam and i got there....its actually a surprised thing for us =]
thanks UAC youth group and ELAINE and Will and Merilee XD

Sigh

Today was the second day for Sam being in Boston and today is the exact day of his sister's grad ceremony...... and yesterday i was told that due to my carelessness, i could NOT go to SynFine....... and ANNA SAID it's NOT the right time for me.......sigh............actually i dun mind working in TRC BUT with Anna it's really hard...........sometimes....it's REALLY hard to NOT think that she's picking on me......

sakura =3

Today Sam and I went to high park to see sakura tgt
We were lucky and im thankful that we were able to see
The forecast said that it would be raining today....if that's the case then it would be no more sakura
Then we quickly went to BSF prayer day, we prayed for 3 hrs
I really enjoyed it and im so shameful that I wasn't that prayerful....

Re-cap

soo funny, yesterday Sam and i wore the EXACT SAME colour for shirt....it's purple....hahaa

i found that its really funny AND.....SWEET....dunno if he thinks the same

anyway......these few weeks wasnt too happy @ work @ all.....>< ....

now.,,Anna made me write those review sheets before i submitted the folders.....she thinks i didnt do thorough analysis before i submitted to her.......

i feel really frustrated.......all she thinks is that IM NOT CAPABLE.... and i know.....

i felt like im a failure........sigh.....every day when i am @ work.....this INTENSE FAILURE MOOD really surrounds me.....

others she would praise them.....i dun think i can smile anymore.,,,,,,,sigh sometimes its just no method to analysis

however, the core of ALL these....i wonder if it is the punishment of God to me....

because i know i am NOT godly nor holy.......i really wanna get close to God, but i always fail to read more Bible or pray.......