HAPPY =3

today went to movie with PIG PIG heehee =3 we watched "Into the Woods"
didnt expect to see him this long heehee =3

Christmas Eve

so it's Christmas Eve now.....

on Monday Dec 22, 2014, we went to Pastor Wong's for a mini gathering
i really like the atmosphere.....and i see how i was so bad tho.....
am i really that bad to mom and geoff? sigh.....
its really complicated.........i always wanna spend more time with mom
but the truth is that in some way i try to avoid being with her....for afraid of being criticized by her....
but when im alone and reflect on my own.......i wish i could do more for them......

whatz wrong?

sigh....>< whatz wrong with all my designs for christmas card?

ANXIOUS.....

.........perhaps.....God thinks im NOT ready.....

.........perhaps......even Samuel ALSO thinks that......
that.....im NO GOOD MARRIAGE MATERIAL.....
people are better without me........right??
........perhaps.......its the punishment for my sins........
even i wanna punish myself.........