One of the goal is to fast with my mouth as i was doing some devotional recently....(Ps 141:3)
tbh i felt like im a failure in EVERY SINGLE ASPECT in my life
@ WORK, i know im a bad witness, and like an outsider......no one likes to befriend with me
Once Sam Chi told me that the others think im NOT interested or at least seem NOT to
BUT the truth is.....im NEVER comfortable there....and tbh My also sometimes said sth repulsive too
why am I THE ONE ALWAYS being blamed or targeted BUT NOT HER?.....=T
SO @ church, ever since we left CLBC, i lost all those friendship......Jennifer would never find me much
i can see that the bonding between the sisters are stronger when i left.......and they always have trips together.....
with the new church UAC, im still NOT used to it...........theres no one i can go to....sigh
@ life.....everyone has a colourful life...full of friends.........full of joy......i wish i could be like them...
im like always with NO FRIENDS............i JUST WANNA BE ACCEPTED
but i know God is giving me a baby girl........i hope she won't be ANYTHING like me......
i only pray that she would be devoted to God, be more like Sam.... =]
