it's been awhile to type sth here, ever since Xanga was being told on, im afraid of writing any blogs
there's no one i could really open up @ seminary.......>< sigh
whenever Elder Lau is back to seminary....there would be no peace in me.....
i cant really see him as my spiritual father.....i dun think he likes me either.......=T
Y really likes him....im just always living under illusions.....all i have been doing is to deceive myself ALL THESE TIMES......sigh....
Where should i be? where should i go? where should i end? where do i belong really?
would there be a place for me to be accepted? Would there be a place where i could NO LONGER NEED TO HIDE?
Lord......am i really a BAD SEED? am i really that self-centred? am i really that UN-loving? am i really that.......uncaring??............
