WALLS.....

Now two years of seminary have been passed.........and i have already decided NOT to continue my schooling in Elder Lau's church anymore.....
and IM ALL ALONE.....even Samuel made the same decision, he is always the blessed one....the favoured one.......EVERYONE STILL ACCEPTS HIM!!!


Never feel this lonely this much!! Even though i have a boyfriend, even we BOTH believe in God, i felt that NO ONE ever understands me.......
AND this is NOT the first time......i felt exactly the SAME last year too....
and its like im always the bad one....even my mom thinks that im stubborn, NOT willing to listen to others......ALL THESE WORDS are like DAGGERS to me.....
yet i could only ignore........im really contradictory........and its contradicting......

FOR ME....ALL I WANT is to be included and accepted