feeling a bit angry

Originally i was gonna not having much negative views on E.L after the talk with Fiona on Wednesday dinner....
However....i felt angry for what its said in the email....i would never forget.......

if others choose to disobey you, its NOT me who could do that........><

i just wanna be included and accepted and.....feeling that im NOT TRASH!!
why am i always wrong?? being rebuked by EVERYONE....?