WHATZ WRONG WITH ME???

Ever since the second year of seminary life started.....i cried almost EVERY DAY!!!!
我不禁問自己，我是不是真的那麼經不起別人的責罵？給人說教一下都不行？
but i dunno why.....whenever it's Sam's turn to speak to me, i felt really hurtful.....
and again i question myself if i always deny my wrongs.....NEVER admitting.....
just say ALL these are true.....then WHY AM I LIKE THIS? whatz WRONG with me actually?
finally today....i went to see a 中.....he's a Catholics.....and even he's a Catholics, he seems to have a good faith...
BUT anyway it's TOO early to make the conclusion.......however, he seems to quite okay....
AND he, being a stranger to me, just met me the first time, already he noticed that i lost my joy for long....
LORD i know this is NOT supposed to be so.....BUT what can i do????