ALONE

now i finally need to admit that im alone in seminary!!! some may say....you have Samuel with you
Samuel is with you then you will be fine.....He is your boyfriend, he would support you!
to me.....he's no longer the one.......yea maybe he's my boyfriend, BUT now i realize it's just for the title....
for me, im like a virus to him, i have bad influence......after all these years, only my brother is the most reliable man.....
he would rebuke me for sure.....i would listen to him....but of course sometimes im heated too.....sigh =T
these days, i forced myself to have regular three meals.....and im determined to do it for seminary years....
BUT....during weekend i dun wanna eat anymore......even i may feel hungry.....but i WONT!!!
whenever im back to HK, my digestive system is such a mess, i couldnt go to washroom for poos....><

and today...the food.....they are really oily, the soup was TOO salty.,....
sorry i complained a lot, BUT I COULD ONLY DO IT HERE!!! please let me have this tiny freedom then.....